Unemployment

I've gotta tell ya, I HATE not working. It makes me so depressed! I feel worthless even though my day is filled with all sorts of things, I don't feel like I get anything done. To top it off, I feel like I have placed a huge burden on Evan. He will never say that, but I can't help but feel that way. I have been pretty steadily employed for at least the last 10 years. I love working! My parents have engrained in me the importance of work and working hard. I can't help but feel I made a mistake when I decided to stop teaching, but at the same time, I do not miss it. I almost cringe when I think about going back. My hours and pay would be cut, no benefits, and the clincher...only one paycheck a month. I don't know how many people out there only get one paycheck a month, but I don't know how you do it.
I also prefer to stay at a job for as long as possible because I HATE interviews. That reason alone should have kept me teaching. I obviously was not thinking it all through because I would have remembered this little detail and I would have quickly decided that teaching was for me. Forever.
I had an interview with a company and went all the way through the process, which is a lot harder and intense now than the last interview I had, only to be told that I wasn't qualified. Ha! You would think that they would figure out if you were qualified or not in the 5 steps before your interview with a manager. Go figure.
I have another interview tomorrow. Am I looking forward to it? Not at all. I wish all interviews were a series of competency tests. Then there is no question if you are qualified for that position or not. It's either pass or fail.
As much as I hate interviews, I am praying that the one tomorrow is the last one I have to go through, at least until I forget about the whole process and decide to change careers again. If things don't work out, then I will work my way from interview to interview until I am qualified enough for the position.
Until then, I will probably continue to be depressed and complain about the whole situation although I know subconciously that I put myself in this position. And if it isn't hard enough to find a suitable job period, I had to decide to find one during the lowest economic employment period.
Oh the joys of adulthood! And to think that when I was in school, I couldn't wait to be an adult. It's funny how things work out like that. What I'd give to go back in time and smack myself til reality kicked in. LOL
Anyway, off I go into this part of life that is turning out to be a life interview, I sure hope I'm qualified! LOL Wish me luck!